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Jay Wilcox's avatar

“Fear is excitement without the breath”…. Damn.

You've got this

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Kristen Elle's avatar

I needed to read this. I’ve been waiting for signs from the universe… to just push through the fear, the inconvenience, the adhd paralysis, the risk… and just do it… write. I just started dabbling in writing, and I feel a pull telling me to write more, but there have just been so many mental stops… but you’re so right; who cares what happens? If it’s what I wanna do, just do it. Thank you!! Wishing you all the creative motivation in the world!

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Xan Rubey's avatar

Yes. This. Last night I saw David Sedaris perform and I kept thinking to myself, “Oh I don’t want to be a writer anymore.” Mostly because I was comparing myself to one of the greatest writers of our time and coming up very, very, short of course. Of course I’m not as good as Sedaris, or Jenny Lawson or the late great Douglas Adams — they are singular voices. But I will also never be as good as ME if I don’t do the fucking writing. I have to do the work just for the sake of doing it.

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Jennifer Esposito's avatar

Keep going Heather!!!

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Heather Matarazzo's avatar

Thank you, Jen. Can’t do anything but that…..🪡

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badass women in history's avatar

love this heather. it's beautifully written, i truly feel like i'm seeing a tiny sneak peek of your brain ❤️. also - a small note, if it helps - your mother won't end with your work, even after you put the pen down. on the contrary, i like to think that that's the real goal -- you'll have immortalized her with all of the other greats. she will love on forever now, in your heart & in your words 💝.

best of luck. rooting for you.

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Mike Riley 🌴's avatar

I felt this. Definitely keep writing, it’ll be powerful. And healing.

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Vince Roman's avatar

Thanks for the morning read 😊

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Elena's avatar

You got this! Sending you creative and positive energy your way! ✨💖🔮🌲

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Mermaids In The Basement's avatar

I felt so much of this- and the quote from your mentor, shoooooo. Definitely a mentor for a reason. Will absolutely see your play when it graces the stage :)

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Heather Matarazzo's avatar

Thank you for reading and for your kind response. Glad you connected with it.

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The Wallachian Girl 🖤❤️'s avatar

Hi, Heather! I absolutely loved how raw and real this was, almost unedited. You really captured how if you want to be a better writer, the best thing you can ever do is just write, and as I read, I felt like I was peering directly into your brain. You wrote everything exactly as it came to you in the moment it came to you, and it was good enough because you believed in yourself - I love to see it 🥰

glad to meet you, and good to hear that you’re finding Substack so rewarding! 😊🧡📄

You can find me here: https://open.substack.com/pub/thewallachiangirl?r=5ed86s&utm_medium=ios

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Rixford's Library of Wonders's avatar

Just do it!

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The Divide's avatar

what if am not a fucker, can i still write ?

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Martina Courtney's avatar

Love this!

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Shay Kelly's avatar

Where’s the update Heather? Keep up the consistency. People want to read your work🏄‍♂️

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James Jordan's avatar

Tee-hee, you used a bad word.

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Julie M Marshall's avatar

Carrie Fisher was an amazing writer and person! I got to meet her once, for less than 4 minutes, behind the Chicago Theatre in 2011 and she was so charming and sweet, even in that short time! You are an amazing writer, and I believe your block comes from being afraid to put down to paper, what you know in your heart and now have to open to the world. It's fucking scary, but her energy is there with you, and even Carrie's. We will accept your truth and love you still.

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